Tonight I kind of have to post something. It gives me a reason to put my blog on my page. I got to spend some time with my cast mates, tonight, a story I though I had put on here…I could have sworn I did, I’ll have to check my drafts. The Ganger got into a play. The university is putting on “Our Town,” and I get to be in it. More than a few people are surprised to learn that I was involved in theater in high school. That is not the point.
The point is I have some awesome cast mates. They allowed me to run my mouth for a while and explain to them that I am unconcerned with saying things like, I love marathon dungeons and dragons games, or sorting pencils, or sorting stamps from the Soviet Union. It is because I do not have time to care. No one can afford to, these are my quirks. I am so very aware that I will not be here one day, and I needed them to know that I am always on the lookout for the next thing to make into a story. I dress up with my sons for Halloween, I go to New York by train on a whim, I audition for plays, I start M&M fights with Liam, because I may not get to do so tomorrow. As you have seen I write it all down, because the next biggest tragedy would be for the stories to be lost, because then who will remember?
It was on the thought of writing it all down that I realized, I write a lot as if I were already gone. Which inspired the idea to write a terrible little poem. It is not finished, but it seems to cap off the night. Judge it all you like, I will as well.
Dead Man’s Story
Hello my dear diary of a dead man!
My gunna be the biggest to do for all the people to see
Like Wellington the people g’on come from all around
The g’on come and bury this hillbilly
They come and stay for days and live a little bit like me
There g’on be song, drink, and dance, but my hope is for you to get a good story.
What you sing, what you drink, and with whom did you dance?
You see that is how you live a bit like me, you put down the phone and begin making a story.
Now me? I am nobody from nowhere, but when I tells you about it, I’m the biggest somebody from the biggest some where you ever heard of.
I was born to the prettiest lady in the daisy land, we together one big family in one big house.
Whole family on a plot of land with a dirt track and a forest filled with dragons and demons and their ilk
My cousins and I the only thing kept them away, our blood, sweat, and play kept those big ole baddies at bay.
Yes we loved it there in the daisy, we went to the same school, the yellow building where mamaw brought the mail to the Allen.
The Allen so old that momma and uncle went there like granddaddy too.
I wish I could show it to you like it was in my day
we moved on to a fancy new street where we was the last generation of kids and a fancy new school that taught me about classes, but where I learned little in class
Now you want to live like me? You g’on need four daddies, you g’on need camping and fishing and movies with your momma across the big old sea.
You gunna live like me you gotta have tobacco, coffee, and tea
You gotta kiss a girl with bright red hair in the photo machine at the gate to the north, you gotta dance with those who cannot speak, you gotta fight when you know you will lose and play nintendo in the tops of trees.
Now you see I wanted to do all there was to see, and surprisingly I am always getting to.
Now I seen London, and I seen France, and I got asked silently by a pretty German girl to dance.
I smelled the channel salt, sailing by a white wall.
Follow me and youll see the black guards of a queen, you’ll sleep in castles in the hills, youll trod the boards with the most creative the nooga had, and you’ll ride horses in a circle every time you see them
To live like me you g’on have to put your name in the big book of an army
you g’on have to go to the man in the round brown hat and do what he say
you g’on have to go to the land of the eagles and learn how they fly
you g’on take up you gun for you destiny, and meet the people who like in the big sand sea
you live like me and you’ll see big crossed sabers, a baghdad sunset, and if you lucky you’ll get to swim in the pool of a dead dictator
you gotta fight in the war, and wonder what for
livin like me get you called doc, if you know some broken body
With me you’ll ride the steam engine to get a pencil and see the big city, gettin back just in time to win moonshine to help the kiddies, while a man tells you that its in the fruit.
To be like me you gotta plan your funeral and write your obituary just to make sure they gets it done right, who else g’on throw that good a party and tell that good a story?